Wow!! It's my first blog post!!

Besides Tumblr I only ever had a couple blogs...around when I was 10-11 I posted about anime figures on Blogger... but I got bored of it really fast, I was more interested in DeviantArt journaling and forums—"social media" if you will.

I think when I was a teen Tumblr definitly cultivated my love of personalization but I never actually learned HTML I just hit my head against the wall trying to combine music player widgets and customized cursors and media pages and pngs of manga girls I made. I don't think I can say I've learned it now but I've gotten a bit more savvy, I know what an iframe is, I can use a flex box, that sort of thing, so 'making' a website (customizing templates lol) has been a really fun experience, I feel totally nostalgic for this time in my life when the internet was creative and I have all the art made in my adult life to use as decoration.

Around two years ago now I tried to make a Neocites from scratch, I went through five billion different and uglier iterations which then culminated in my desire to make a parallax scrolling website with every drawing, every video, every comic I'd ever made on just the home page. If you can't imagine what that would look like you can probably understand how excrutiating that was to make with only a beginners grasp of HTML/CSS and no knowledge of Javascript haha. I think using a template for both the website and the blog was the way to go this time.

In the process of putting together WolfieWorld & WolfieWords I've been to a lot of those ultra kawaii cutecore pixel art personal websites, it's just not my aesthetic but I understand that if it is—all socmed and website templates and the like just must be completely repulsive. I guess whenever I come across the ultra cute I wonder what it would be like to be that kind of girl.

Maybe moreso than that I wonder about living the life of someone with a cultivated 'aesthetic.' That's just something I've never had, lesbianism isn't an aesthetic but it's the only throughline in my art. I think that's why creating a website has been so troubling, I really don't know what container my work fits in, if in any at all. I like too many things, I have a constant rotation of interests and I think most of all the thought of defining myself with an image freaks me the fuck out.

It's really not that serious but whenever I change my socmed icon I have an identity crisis. I usually end up changing it back. My original Tumblr icon has remained unchanged since I was 13. Is it images that have connection to my history that end up more important than images I 'like'? Liking something feels so nebulous and hard to grasp. What if I like things that don't fit into my narrative? I love sleek minimal UI but my art is completely antithetical to that. I love drawing with pink but I won't wear it unless it's like #ffe6ee or like #ed8087. Hm.

Anyway. Website fun. Everyone should make one!!!! I want to make note that I was really inspired by Becky's awesome blog and website as well as Nadia's very cute site & blog!!!

This week me and Ivy went to the bookstore & the Melbourne Library which has an exhibit on the history of printing. I wish I'd taken more pictures but it was one of those situations where everything had to be kept in really low light for preservation purposes and the glass was very reflective. They had some incredible illuminated manuscripts on like real vellum and these Cantonese to English dictionaries that were vertically arranged. Really cool. Lot's of old pulp covers, sci-fi, first editions.

Really amazing to see in person, here's Aubrey's illustrations if you're interested—or if you're interested in looking at a really beautiful twink with a crazy haircut here's a gallery of Aubrey himself. He strikes me as a Lana Del Rey stannie, wears a suit to class, gay ally libertarian on the debate club, bisexual but gets more attention from girls kind of guy. Loveeee the Wikipedian who included the rumor about fucking his sister on his page. What a way to go down in history.

Pale Fire is Ivy's and the other two or for me. Excited. Penguin printings are so nice, I'm really partial to the Penguin Science Fiction Classics covers.

That's all I have to say, thanks for reading :)